Is this for me?

I'm missing my brother now, reminiscing on my younger years, he was there with me all the time, we grew up together, always had fights over small things on daily basis and would go for any kind of adventures e.g tangkap berudu, masuk longkang, lompat bukit dgn basikal, etc etc. But things get different when we were seperated which I had to go to kuantan and he had to study in Penang. And it get worst earlier this year, just maybe Im not doing a good job as a sister. There are so many times I felt the adrenaline rush when I thought I'll be losing him because of the suspected leukimia and what we thought he was electrocuted few days back. I hope he knows even how meanie and lousy I act as a sister, deep down inside you're always the baby brother whom I love.